tired & loopy
I seem to be still getting over last week’s stress. Combined with a lot of chores I did around the house today makes for one tired me. Not vacuuming for two weeks makes for a challenging assignment; I spent a good hour and a half working on two rugs since our dog loves to sit and sleep on it. And she sheds. A lot.
It’s going to be another week of waiting. I hope it won’t take long - waiting and worrying is a big waste of my time. I sit here and wonder “maybe they thought I was a big idiot” even though there wasn’t much else I could do, given where I am at this point in time. It’s about a completely different context (I’m sure) but today I kept on singing my favourite refrain from this Wilco song I really like:
“It’s okay for you to say what you want from me
cause I believe that’s the only way for me to be
exactly what you want me to be”
While I wait for the possible bad news regarding the Ohio job, now there’s a different prospect at a school in Michigan. A radically different thing - it’s at a big state school and one thing I’ll be teaching both semesters is a humongous intro survey with a class size of one hundred plus (possibly two hundred!). It’ll be a different kind of experience, for sure… but something that will probably be really good for me, if a little out of my element. I can lecture in front of a hundred students, sure I can… right? Anyway, this interview (over the phone) is on the docket for later on this week. The paranoid thought regarding the first job are creeping up on me, but at the moment, I’m much too tired and loopy for it to really get me down.
There’s a thunderstorm in the forecast tomorrow… it’s been really pleasant but dry the last ten days or so. I’m hoping for some rain for the garden. My sprouts have been enjoying afternoons under the sun out front the last few days. Perhaps in a few weeks, they’ll find a permanent home somewhere outside.
Oh, I made someone’s day today. It felt really good.
